I had planned to write a post on what scares me the most. But as I considered the obvious (I have severe arachnophobia and hate climbing ladders), I decided to put some more thought into this question.

The thought of not pushing on and doing what I want to do with my life (including bucket list) is what scares me. Due to my childhood, I believe that the past cannot be changed. I always looked forward to my future and what each new day can bring. I could become better, and I had the power to create a better future for myself.

Even working with this mindset since I was young, I still felt unfulfilled. Until I read a book about staying present in the moment, it’s not easy for me as a type A looking at the future task-oriented person. I have found the exercise to be what was missing. I’m still working on this and learning how to be in the moment properly and fully be present.

I met a woman a few years ago who was so rooted in the present and whatever was happening that it affected my thought process. I was at a fiber fair. Honestly, it was a ten-minute conversation, and we didn’t talk about that at all. The chat was about fibers and animals, but her ability to stay right in the moment had such an impact that I never forgot her.

This is a skill that I still struggle with (I am a problem solver and task doer.) but something I work on to better myself as a person and understand people around me.